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Post by alicia on Apr 28, 2007 20:50:52 GMT -5
Alicia walked slowly, trying to not pay attention to her thoughts. She passed by trees with multi-colored leaves. 'Must be getting close to autumn.' She thought carelessly. She let her head hang, and she just watched her feet as she walked. 'Left foot, right foot, left foot..' She sighed heavily. She lifted her head to the sun. Even though she was trying to get away from her thoughts..that was one thing that a person cannot escape from.
Interesting how time passes. It seems to go fast, at times it seems to go slowly. Some times it seems like it is slipping away from you. No wonder people stay alone..It actually hurts less this way..Better to love and lose, then to never have loved at all? Who thought of that? She scoffed at the idea.
All she could think about was the friends that she had made. The friends that I have lost.. She shook her head. "Oh what have I done?" She muttered as she felt the tears well up in her eyes. "I never should have spoken to anyone..never should have become attached to anyone. All I end up with is disappointment." She said the last part with a silent sob. She wiped away the tears. She was angry with herself for being so weak. "I always said never again..But why? Why do I do this to myself over and over again!" She yelled into the empty forest in front of her. "I always set myself up for pain! I cannot blame those who have hurt me..Its all my fault." She felt her knees begin to weaken and sat down heavily against a huge oak tree. She pulled her feet up close to her and leaned her head on her knees. "This is too much.." She whispered as she felt the tears fall. She had lost her family, and she was lost. She had no one to turn to. She couldnt talk to Amberly, she would never understand. She couldnt bring herself to talk to Terren or Michella. They would think she was crazy. She lifted her head and talked silently to the sky, the trees, the clouds, and anything within hearing distance. She smiled as she thought about what she was doing. "I guess I can talk to the forest. You will not judge me, will not be angry with me..you cannot leave me like the rest.." She said that and sighed again. "Oh who am I fooling? I have gone crazy." She said with a sarcastic tone. She looked around. 'Wonder where I am? Ahh, I will find out sooner or later..there must be a way out of here. Ah, theres the school..I can see the top of the building from here...But do I want to go back? Yes..As much as I hate to admit it, I do like it there..but I must watch who I talk to, associate with..' She thought to herself as she wiped the tears from her face, stood up, and brushed herself off. She stretched and headed to the school.
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Post by Marr-ee on Apr 28, 2007 22:37:14 GMT -5
A young man trudged into the forest, letting his hand pass on most of the trees that presided there. Most of them were starting to turn due to the cooler weather happening, but he spotted one leaf that was still green among many browns. His finger made contact with it and almost instantly it seemed to perk up. This boy was all about nature. It was enevitable that he had a green thumb. His powers let him be in touch with earth and the ability to control it and wield it that way he wanted.
After walking for a while, he felt like he was in deep enough of the forest. Alot of the tree's were starting to die off for the winter months ahead, and it bothered him. Autumn meant that his powers would be limited to just the grounded elements. He hated Autumn. Suddenly he heard a voice in the forest that sounded distressed. 'WHo would be down here this at this time of day?' He asked himself and figured he might want to find out.
I cannot blame those who have hurt me..Its all my fault.
Somehow he knew that that isn't always the case. To him, the other person is at fault just as much or less than the person in question. He decided to followed the voice that was voiced over the forest, tucking his hands in his pockets before he continued in. He saw a figure beyond the trees behind him and was in 'aww' at the beauty that was there despite the forests appearence.
"Sometimes, that's not always the case for being hurt. Sometimes the other person is at fault first!" He echoed through the forest at the figured woman.
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Post by alicia on Apr 28, 2007 22:58:32 GMT -5
Alicia jerked straight up when she heard the voice come from behind her. She stood still and ducked her head, turning it slightly to get an eye on the man standing there. She answered because she knew for a fact that he had been talking to her. Who else would he be talking to? " You dont know what you're talking about.." She whispered, not knowing if he could hear her. She turned around slowly and looked at him closer. Oh my.. She shook her head to clear her thoughts. What is wrong with you??Didnt we just go over this Alicia? She chided herself. "What are you doing out here anyway?" She asked gesturing at the forest around her. "It is hardly a popular hangout point.. That is why I chose to come here..I thought I would be alone..I guess not. Why do you care anyway?" She hated the tone she was taking with him. She needed the human contact, someone she could talk to. But she knew how it turned out for her. She would confide in someone, and they would leave, and she would be alone, again..So she tried to get him to leave, being near her always created sorrow, for her or anyone trying to get close to her. She knew she shouldnt start up a conversation, but he sort of snuck up on her, and sometimes she couldnt think right. Especially if they look like him. Stop it! She felt the blush start up her cheeks and hid her face as best she could by pretending to look elsewhere.
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Post by Marr-ee on Apr 28, 2007 23:09:25 GMT -5
Anthony showed himself to her after hearing her reaction to him. He nodded his head at her and smiled at her half circling her and leaned against a tree for comfort. "I may not know what I'm talking about, but by the way you were just yelling, It just seem to feel like it wasn't your fault." He calmly told her. His voice was deep and it was harmonious with nature around. Folding his arms infront of him, he looked at her interested in why.
"Well, my dear. I come out here practically forever. I hate being cooped up inside. It gives a terrible headache." He told her and placed his hand on a tree. He could feel the vibrations from it and smiled. "I'm in tune with the earth you see before you. I have an ability to control the elements around me. From the tree's to the dirt."
He continued and touched a green leaf letting it lay in his hand. "I know this isn't the most popular place to hang out, but that's one reason why I like it. Very few people come here and I use my time to meditate while I'm out here, but what I can't understand is why people who seemed distraught seems to take it out on themselves without seeking the truth of the problem." He paused for a moment. "So, what are you doing out here all by yourself. Should you be at the school, learning or fighting or something?"
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Post by alicia on Apr 28, 2007 23:20:43 GMT -5
Alicia laughed shortly at his last comment. " I hardly need to learn how to fight at the school. I fight with myself too often to need lessons on it. Maybe if they gave lessons on how to win a fight with one's conscience? That," she waved a finger at him," would be helpful." She threw her hand in the air in a mocking gesture. "And why arent you at the school?" She looked him up and down. "And there is no one at the school that would want me to attend. I promise you that..And like I said before, you dont know what you are talking about. You dont want to associate yourself with me. Everyone that does just gets hurt. Even though you seem very confident in yourself, dont be so sure..just dont be..okay?" She said that last bit as she scanned the tops of the trees. She knew that she had seen the school once before that way and she needed to get her directions straight again. When she spotted it, she turned back to him. "I never got your name." She said, mostly as a statement of fact, she wasnt asking. She was just curious as to what name went with a man like that. She eyed him curiously to see if he would answer. She was interested, damn her wandering mind..and eyes..She jerked her sight back to the school as she realized that she had been giving him more than just a seconds glance. Her hand went up to rub the back of her neck.
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Post by Marr-ee on Apr 28, 2007 23:30:44 GMT -5
(You know, I think I like this guy better than I do Wyatt! lol)
Anthony laughed slightly about hearing her fighting a conscience. If he ever had that problem, just spending time out in the forest or anywhere where nature was concerned would clear his thoughts in a heartbeat. He shook his head at her. She still doughted herself and made it to make her feel like the bad guy, or rather in this case girl. "You know. Nature can heal and clear oneself if you give it a chance. Letting yourself get lost, minus the pun, and being able to breath in fresh air clears your head." He said to her and moved away from the tree. He bent down to the ground and saw a wilted flower and put both of his hands around the dingy yellow flower and after a few seconds the flower raised up. "I dont' care about what others have said or what I've heard, but I don't judge people until I get to know them. I don't know what you can do, but I'm sure I'll take my chances at getting to know you."
He moved his hands away from the flower and the small form went back to its wilted form. He frowned just slightly and stood back up.
"Well, I guess that makes it go both ways... but My name is Anthony, but I go by Golem." He smirked a little. "You can guess why now. My powers and all. Seems like a connection, eh?"
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Post by alicia on Apr 28, 2007 23:42:12 GMT -5
((me too!))
Alicia glanced over at him and watched as he tried to save the little yellow flower. She saw the frown on his face. Kind of sweet really.. She frowned slightly herself at that thought. She shook her head and looked down at her feet again. Why do I try?.... Umm maybe because you dont want to be alone?..Yeah..maybe.. She sighed deeply as she realized that she had just asked herself a question and answered herself. "Amazing talent you have." She said quietly. "Wish I had something so beneficial..All I can do is this." She whispered as she sent a duplicate next to Anthony. It spoke, "Anthony, huh. Nice name..Mine..or rather hers, is Alicia. Nice to meet you Anthony." As it finished speaking Alicia drug the duplicate back to her. "Useless talent I know..but it is all I have.." She said, for some reason she felt she needed to defend it..but couldnt think of anything at the moment to make it seem like anyone would want a talent such as hers. She shrugged. She looked over at him slowly. "Why would anyone want to take the risk of getting to know someone if they know that there will be no good end? If all it leads to is bad luck and misery? Why try?"
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Post by Marr-ee on Apr 28, 2007 23:53:54 GMT -5
Anthony, or rather Golem, moved away from her slightly and took a few steps away. Her power was handy of course. Being able to be in two places at once. A rare power that he thought should be coveted. "Alicia, eh? It's nice..."
Putting his hand close to the ground, he pulled his hand away from the ground, making a lump of soil raise up to his sitting level. "Well, your talent is very useful as long as your double can take you classes for you." He said to her sitting down on the pile of dirt he summoned. He smiled at her and crossed his legs bringing his hands on his knee's and took a deep breath. "Well, to me. If you fail to try, then really your trying to fail! Even if the bad luck, as you say, is at the end. Then why risk the good at first? Being alone isn't what it's cracked up to be you know. Gets lonely." He realized that at that moment he was sitting and she was still standing. He got up and walked beside Alicia and summoned the ground beside her, making the ground raise up. "Sorry, I forgot to offer the lady a seat, unless you were planning on going back to the school already. It was nice to meet you though. I do hope that you come and visit anytime." He wasn't trying to shoo her away, but she seemed like she wanted to go already. WAsn't a surprise. He had tried to make friendly conversation, so he didn't fail at what he preached.
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Post by alicia on Apr 29, 2007 0:04:34 GMT -5
Alicia turned slightly and looked back at the mound of dirt. She noticed that it would look horrible on her black skirt, but shrugged. Who cares? She thought nonchalantly as she tucked her skirt under her as she sat down. She looked back up at Anthony expectantly waiting for him to sit. If he wanted to try to become friends with her anyway..then no one could say that she didnt try to warn him. "Well? After trying for so many times and being slammed emotionally so much that you just wish that you would go numb, feel nothing at all.. And just think Anthony..I am never alone. I have my duplicates..They think as one, act as one, although it does get a little boring being around so many "me's"..At least Im not alone..." As she said it , she knew it sounded like a pathetic excuse. She absentmindedly toyed with the loose dirt at the top of the pile. "Why are you alone? I know that you could just walk right to that school, and anyone there would jump at the chance to be your friend..why stay out here? I mean, its beautiful and all..and I can see why you would visit often..But why be alone, when you have the choice to be among others?" She asked truly curious as to why he would want to be alone. I dont want to be alone..but I dont have a choice.That was taken from me.. She thought sadly as she waited for him to answer. She stayed quiet after that, thinking that maybe she had already said enough. She sighed silently. She kept her eyes on the little wilted flower that he tried but couldnt save. There's me..he can try..but I doubt he can save me from myself..
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Post by Marr-ee on Apr 29, 2007 0:18:52 GMT -5
Anthony watched her sit on the dirt pile and sat himself letting hisself go back to the position he was sitting in the first time. He crossed his feet and let his hands rest on his knees and looked up at the tree tops. The sun would be setting soon, but mostly he stay out until after dark. Being one with nature also allowed him to really be in touch with his powers. Using vibrations to lead him back to the school and anywhere out in the forest for that matter.
"All you can do is try, and try again. Sooner or later, you will succeed in what you are serching for. It won't show up so instantly, sometimes you have to work for what you need or want. Your situation is no different." He turned his head to cough, covering his mouth and let out a small laugh. "It's funny, even though it's my element, I still have allergies to it. Kinda ironic, huh?"
Anthony tilted his head a little and looked at her. SHe seemed to be nice, but also, she seemed to be a little 'to herself'. She didn't want to let anyone in for fear of hurting them or herself worse. His views on that were different, though. "You know, even though you say you'll never be alone, you really are, aren't you? HAving a duplicate isn't what you want. THey can't talk to you. THey only listen. They only know as much as you and that doesn't make for a stress relief conversation.
"Well, as ironic as it sounds, I prefer to be by myself. It lets me be who I am, without having the people around my influence my thoughts, my feelings or the way I live." He mumbled a little after that so she couldn't hear. "but, this place is more like home than that school ever would. The earth protects me, nurishes me and heals me. Why would I want to be anywhere else." True, the way he was talking didn't make much since, but it was all he had. He scratched his head and took a deep breath. "Would you care to tell me what happened for you to think that it's your fault. I will listen and I never judge."
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Post by alicia on Apr 29, 2007 17:08:36 GMT -5
Alicia turned her head slightly, not wanting to really look at him. She grimaced as the want to tell him everything hit her hard. She let her shoulders sag, as she took a deep breath."Where to start. " She said trying to find out mentally where it all began. "I guess it happened when I first got here..I tried to tell myself that I needed to stay by myself. After I lost my parents.."She let her head hang as she kept playing with the dirt. She lifted up a handful of it and watched it intently as it poured through her fingers. After it was all gone, she looked from her hand to Anthony. She kept her hand in the air. "They say that I started the house fire that killed them..." At that she let her hand down so quickly that it smacked the pile of dirt. "I dont even really remember that day." She frowned at the ground. "I try to think about them sometimes..But I cant really even remember their faces..Any how, since then, I went from foster home from foster home. In every one I seemed to do something wrong, and it made them send me back, one after the other..So I became unattached. Just stopped trying to love the families that kept me. I lost friend after friend as I moved from place to place. So I stopped trying to make them. Then I come here," She made a gesture to the school." And I finally believe that I can make friends..And actually keep them!" She sighed."But the one good friend I make..I have to fall for the guy she likes..Then I find out he doesnt even like me..So now I wouldnt doubt if she never talked to me again, and I am alone...Again.. Sounds stupid I know. But I have lost it..and this time I had no help..I can only blame myself for my stupidity.." She glanced back over at Anthony. "You dont judge? How can anyone not judge..Maybe you can deny the judgement, over rule it in your mind..But the mind forms judgement without our consent..It always has..it always will." She said the last part, trying to reason not with him..but with herself. She shook her head. Its a lost cause..fighting with oneself, yet I do it anyway..
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Post by Marr-ee on Apr 29, 2007 17:57:29 GMT -5
Anthony kept an eye on her. She seemed to be having difficutly to start, so he just waited patiently. He put his hand on the loose dirt beside him, beginning to make different patters with it. The sand acted like a magnet, moving in any direction he moved his hand to. However, he quickly turned his attention back to her when she started to talk. Most of the time he didn't take his eye's off her, but occationally looked down at the dirt that he made wierd symbols appeared on it.
Thoughts were going through his mind. He had never had a foster family, but he had to live with his uncle and aunt when he was five, because of his parents. They didn't have a very stable household for him to live with and custody battles ensued for years. Finally after he turned ten, his uncle and aunt got custody of him and his parents disappeared out of his life. Thus, he found a sactuary for himself in the forest that wasn't too far from his house. Spending half his life there. That's when he found out about his powers and so did his relatives. They welcomed his powers, but feared what the outside world would think.
He shook his head out of those memories and replied to her. "I only judge what I see is wrong. No matter the ways people act, they have reasons for that and only when they do wrong to me, sometimes I still find it easy to forgive people, because I wonder what it's like in their shoes. So, I'm really a down to earth kinda guy. Minus the pun... of course!" He gave a slight laugh at his own expence. "but, with your friend. Did you tell her about the situation? I mean, I bet she was hurt from it, but did you actually get to talk to her about it?" He wondered about it. Maybe they both needed time by theirselves to meditate or be together without any interferrances(ACK??) to talk. It always helped to talk to someone, and he was personally glad to actually have someone to talk to. He dusted off his hands from playing with the dirt and got up to stretch, letting his arms extend over his head. "Ahh... Much better. I hate sitting forever..." He returned his attention to her after leaning against a tree.
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Post by alicia on Apr 29, 2007 18:14:17 GMT -5
Alicia didnt lift her head, but silently watched as he got up and stretched. She didnt follow suit, but instead just stretched her legs out in front of her and leaned back, placing her hands behind her to keep herself balanced. She flipped her hair to the side to get it out of her face. "Seems like you know what you're doing then huh? Me..I have no clue. And to answer your question, yes I did talk to her about it..but she was devastated when she found out..I felt like I had betrayed her..which I had..Even though I didnt know that she wanted to be with him, doesnt mean that I shouldnt at least have had a clue...I mean, he was soo her type..I thought he was mine..but I was so completely wrong.." She leaned her head back and felt her hair sweep the ground. She lifted up her head to look directly at him. "What do you think about relationships? I mean..you say you like being alone..but havent you ever wished that you had someone?"
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Post by Marr-ee on Apr 29, 2007 18:27:14 GMT -5
Anthony watched her stretch her legs as well. As much as the earth was a part of him, it still hurt to sit on it for a long time. He made a slight whisper of a laugh and used his thumb to scratch the side of his cheek.
"Eh, I've had years of practice of doing everything I need to. I've learned what I could from the earth, and in returned it taught me alot as well. Like respect..." He stopped to mention that. "Well, I think since your friend has had her time to recover from the shock, now would be a good time to talk to her. I mean, if you talked to her right after everything happened, then you should have expected such thing from her. I mean, it probably was just a big a shock for her as it was for you."
He tilted his head over to pop his neck and pushed away from the tree and started to pace himself when she asked about relationships. "Well, I've never really had the chance to be close to someone, really. Some people just don't understand the way I am. I'm more of loner mainly because I don't want others influencing my life the way I don't see fit. You know?" He paused for a moment and bent down again and let his hand grasp a dead tree leaf. "Things just sometimes don't go as planned and I find myself being tossed around emotionally. What about you though. Are you afraid of relationships?"
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Post by alicia on Apr 29, 2007 18:45:06 GMT -5
"Afraid of relationships? No..or else I wouldnt try to be in them as often as I do..I am afraid of being alone..That is what my problem is. But I couldnt see not trying to be with someone, maybe that is what I need to do. Just give myself time..I probably seem as desperate as I am." Alicia stood up slowly and dusted off her hands and skirt the best she could. She stretched much as he had, and eyed him as he paced. "Thank you for listening..I feel less stupid talking to you than talking to the forest.." At that she brought her hand up to her mouth. She felt the blush start as she became mortified at what she had just said. She began to stammer as she tried to correct that social disaster. "I...I ....I...I didnt...I didnt mean it that way..I ..I...I mean..Theres nothing wrong with talking to the forest..Umm..umm..oh, I'm sorry! I didnt mean to say it that way...." Alicia dropped her head into her hands and started to walk away slowly.Oh wonderful Alicia..diss him..that will make him talk to you again..say its stupid to talk to the forest when he does it all the time.. Stupid..stupid..stupid.. She chided herself mentally as she tried to get away, not wanting him to see the deep red tint of her face. She gasped as she almost hit a tree in the process. She sat down heavily and laid her back against the very tree she almost hit. She leaned her head against it and closed her eyes. "Breathe..breathe..ten, nine,eight,seven,six,five,four,three,two,one..." She said quickly and all in one breath. "Calm down before you get yourself hurt or killed." She opened one eye and saw that in her attempt to walk away, she had barely made it across the field that both he and she were standing in. "Always a clutz..socially and physically.." She said loudly enough for him to hear her. She closed her eyes once more and felt the tear run down her cheek. "Always a clutz...always a mess up.." She muttered.
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